|This is the library coke machine that used to be daily temptation for me. I am so glad it no longer sucks money out of my pockets.|
Brand didn't really matter--I had my preferences--but I would drink basically any soda. I would get soda cravings so strong they would give me a tremendous pressure in my head if I didn't have one. The pressure would be almost instantly relieved by a sip of that fizzy "delight." (It wasn't the caffeine either because I switched to caffeine-free and even that still stopped the withdrawal symptoms.)
|A close up of part of a self-portrait I made in 2006 in which I have given myself an IV drip of Diet Mountain Dew. THAT'S how crazy it was. (I was studying Eastern religions at the time in college, hence the multiple arms)|
I would (somewhat) jokingly refer to Diet Mountain Dew and Diet Pepsi as the "nectar of the gods." I was hardly joking.
I would buy it by the 2 liter (to save on packaging and price), but that mostly resulted in my drinking even more of it since it wasn't portioned out. Soon that big ol' bottle was empty. My recycle bin was overflowing with those lousy plastic bottles.
I think that quitting aspartame/diet soda is the second hardest vice I've conquered. It is second only to quitting cigarettes.
So, I was thinking: "Oh, Easter is coming up soon. That means it's coming up on a year since I had aspartame." Then I looked at the 2010 calendar and realized its actually already been a year since Easter was so early last year and so late this year. Wow...time flies.
Just like when I quit cigarettes I can not imagine it any other way now. To think of my dependence/addiction to diet soda now is almost laughable. I almost never think of soda anymore. The only time I really do is on camping outs and road trips. So, I have one. Only now it is organic sparkling juice or an organic soda in which I can recognize all the ingredients (including the horrifying amount of sugar, which frequently makes me reconsider). But, it is a treat, as I feel it should be, not an every day thing like it was.
I drink much, much more water now, as well as tea. One neat observation: I stopped feeling the need to put sweetener in my tea after I kicked aspartame. I am not sure why, perhaps the sweetness receptor inside me has been that much realigned.
I am kicking my vices one at a time on my quest towards good living...it is a slow going, but rewarding process. I suppose that is a good thing to keep in mind.